we named our children after towns we'd never been to

returned to school after three months (?) of pure bliss. i woke up so nervous like i was starting year eight but then once i started class i felt so confined. i realised the only reason i felt nervous was because i would of been seeing so many faces that i hadn't seen for so long and it would be an environment i would have to get used to again. a mixture of people which of half i hate so much and i would be stuck with for the rest of the year.
life is so meaningless right now. i have to follow a timetable, pretend that i want to talk to people that come up to me and put my smart cap on. time is controlling my life and so are parents/ school/ pressures/ expectations.

its another world i don't want to enter.

(these are some photos from chinese new year. i love c.n.y, it's like i get two chances for the year)




feeling like: dread and contempt
listening to: angus and julia stone