i believe in clean breaks

So it is currently 1.07, I am on my bed with salt and vinegar chips since I didn't have a proper dinner at Dorafa's except tasting the rankest green alcohol. Fuck I don't know what my feelings about alcohol are anymore. I'm all messed up and ruffled. I feel good though. I feel lazy and so behind in work. Not that you're meant to feel good when thats happening but eh.
I've been pretty rebel this week. I've been doing things that I usually do and I kind-of enjoy it. But who gives- it's holidays! :D :D And yeah I've had a high on life lately. I'm really scared that all of a sudden this happiness will disappear and reality will come back into focus. I wouldn't mind if this happy feeling was reality all the time.
But I've had a pretty awesome week. Like the ball was on Wednesday and afters was Thursday morning. The ball was really really really awesome. At first it seemed a bit superficial for me because I ended up repeating the same line(s) over and over again. "Hey there! Aw thanks your dress is so awes too!! You look so nice!! How's it going??" But I did actually genuinely mean the comments for most of the it. There was way too many photos though- swear my eyes were like blinded by all the flashes. And it was so hard to like act normal and comfortable in a skin tight dress and 5 cm heels. But it was all fun and thats all that matters. (Although my feet still have pins and needles from the other night. It's kind of freaky) I'll upload photos from pre and afters in a short while.
It was sad that people told me during the ball that they were looking forward to see what I was going to wear. I mean I did take it as a subtle compliment because they were expecting something 'different' so they pretty much called me 'unique' which is always a nice thing to hear. But I used the ball as an excuse to be all girly and get make-up and hair done which I hardly ever do. I mean it's not everyday that I get all this shit piled onto my face and my hair curled. Yes I do admit I didn't like it- I wanted to rub it all of and wet my hair but my mum threatened me in a very vicious voice. Eh, it was an experience all in all.

So yeah as I said before tonight I was over at Dorafa's with a few of my friends. It was a surprise party for Eboney and it was absolutley off the hook. After tonight my stance on alcohol has changed quite a bit. (Either positive or negative you will never know)

On a much more serious note:
Ever after a few days ago I've been in a state of confusion.
Is it ever at all possible to like someone you accidently met?
I wasn't meant to stay longer, it was meant to be short and sweet.
But he kept on replying and I kept on following.
I fall too quickly for all the wrong reasons.
I want to feel something.


HUGS, ANNIE XXX