Tonights sky looked really nice. It was all blank and free. I was looking at it after packing up for string ensemble. I wish I was riding my bike at that moment in time instead of being stuck in my own thoughts and worries.
My windows open to the futherest it can at the moment and I'm sure if a stranger walked past they would be able to see my room in full view, but I really don't give a shit.



I watched the moon gradually move over the night sky tonight. I was thinking about life and shits when I was looking @ the moon and I thought, SO so so many people would be also looking @ the EXACT SAME MOON with a multitude of different thoughts. The moon must feel so special, to be the close friend of every human being, animal and organism on the planet. The moon is the only constant factor in our lives that are changing ever so often. It'll always be there for us, @ the same time, @ the same place, wherever we are. 
If someone leaves us, breaks our hearts, stops being our friend, the moon is always there to listen to our tears.
The moon would never leave us. No one could ever steal the moon away from you cause the moon is everyones.






I feel like I've wasted so much time I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't like it when people steal things especially friends, from me :(
I don't like the feeling of being replaced. Thrown away.
I'm sure its just me, but I want something, SOMEONE to confront me and tell me it's okay.




But is it really?
Why are we humans so possesive over things? Why do we always want more? Why do we always want answers? Why do we never give up on things that we love so much? When we known it'll never be ours?


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There's so many things I want to tell you but I'm scared.
I'm so unexplainbly scared and confused.
I don't want to lose you. Ever.