11:59 PM, 28TH FEBRUARY 2010 

in one minute it'll be 

12:00 AM 1ST MARCH 2010 

oh would you look at that, its the start of a new month already. the end of 28 days, the end of summer, the end of cny, the end of february. TIME- i have never felt it put so much pressure on my sense of direction and position in daily life so much before. for the past week i have felt its hard weight on my back, straining every molecule in my brain to settle into university and reassess where i am headed towards.

i was passing through my old blogs before and i reached to the one i posted at the end of feburary in 2009. i read about how i was undergoing year 12 stress and much more trivial situations. right now i could say i am going through exactly the same things except, for some reason, i feel much more in tune and not so narrow minded about human beings. sure, i still hold the principle beliefs i had back then, but come to think of it, they were quite immature and shallow minded.

so

am

i

saying

that

i
have


...grown up....?


i guess so, in more than just some ways. one year consists of 365 days, 366 if its a leap year. back to the starting topic of this blog- time. controlling us, conciously, and fully aware of it yet taken granted of.

today, well yesterday, i hung out with the besties in one of our usual spots, freo. that is one of the things that have remained constant over the year. whislt drinking green tea that tasted weirdly like oranges, white chocolate milkshakes and eating bland wraps, we talked about tomorrow, which is today.

what we discussed made me feel mellow and sad, the deepest sad. a kind of longing sad.
i would tell you all about it my friend, but i must go and lay into sleep since my french buddy adam is picking me up at an obscene time since public transport on public holidays is fucked up.

so till later on in the day (i also finish uni at an obscene time- why must more knowledge = more sacrifices?),
i hope you find at least one thing that makes you happy really deep down today.

currently listening to: smells like teen spirit- nirvana