IMYSM.

Around twilight this evening, I went about my usual chore  of bringing in the washing and closing the laundry curtains since my  room is right next door. It was weird, it wasn't till tonight that I  realised how scenic and picturesque it actually looked out there!  Cannot believe I have overlooked this beauty over years and years living  in this house and going out there as my principle chore for the house. Of course I had to run inside and take photos, just  incase I never saw the beauty in this ever again. (Maybe multiple photographs)

Doesn't this photo look like something out of a fairytale that is set in the deep forest? But not the mean, nasty, cold forest- quite the opposite in fact. Somewhere where Little Red Riding Hood would find warmth away from the hunter, where Snow White would find the seven dwarfs, where the Princess would find the bed with the pea and Sleeping Beauty would find her Prince Charming.
So I have decided that everyone should go explore their house- no matter how much you think you know it back to front. Even if you've lived there your whole life (I've lived in this house for 15 years now) there will be beauty that you overlook everyday and have never noticed before.

I wish my eyes would always be open to see all this beauty seeping through the clouds and laying its grace on the environment, buildings and people. Instead of being clouded up by the feelings of hurt and betrayal I feel, I should stop caring so much and look over it. Transparency. Although, I do have justified reasons as to why I should at least receive an explanation or words of apology from the person who caused all this hurt. Bluergh. I said I didn't care a few posts down, and that I am better than this, but I still can't ignore it!

Today was actually quite productive. I spent most of the day sleeping but what I get out of sleeping is that I am able to concentrate much more and feel like I actually should be studying. Well I woke up with the most annoying headache so I downed two panadols with a coffee. (I've started using my dads coffee machine again! Since the winter weather is amongst us now! :} ) I crammed in all the facts I could for muscles, bones and connective tissues, in the little grooves of my brain that don't already have facts for embryology, respiratory/ excretory/ circulatory systems, epithelia, etc etc. I was meant to go out for lunch with Jack but I had to bail on him because I woke up with strains of stress for the exam tomorrow. At least I get to meet him tomorrow arvo feeling refreshed and relieved (yet more strains for the upcoming six exams left!) I have four exams this week and starting from tomorrow, there all in a row :( Oh the life of a uni student...

So today I made up Mid Year for the New Year Resolutions because I felt that if I had them down on paper I would feel that this year isn't going to waste. It made me feel like I actually had a purpose for this year, no matter how aimless its turning out to be, and all the stupid things that are happening. It kind of made clear to me that I always have to work towards something otherwise I feel like each day is such a waste. I filled in two pages of my journal with "resolutions", sorry but I am unable to disclose them on this blog :)

Anyways, I suppose this is the end of this entry. I should probably go to sleep now seeing as I have to wake up early for the exam tomorrow. I hope I don't miss the train/ bus because I'm so used to waking up late as thats been the daily habit for the past few weeks. I tried waking up early today and I ended up sleeping in. Well it was only an hour later than what I aimed to PLUS I didn't have an alarm, so I guess my body clock did okay :)

Currently listening to: Symphonies- Dan Black ft. Kid Cudi
I've started listening to a lot of techno/ rap now, it makes me kind of calm and gives my life some sort of beat that its lacking. But I'll save that for another entry :)
WISH ME LUCK FOR MY EXAM TOMORROW!