Climbing ladders to pull the stars, things I did for you back then.

From now on, I'm going to stop exclaiming at my long periods of absence from my loverly blog. Its becoming more of a constant occurance, where in one blog I'll post on the whereabouts of my feelings/ thoughts flying around my head and then about a million light years away another post will turn up where all the things that mattered so much in the previous blog won't even pull a string at my mind anymore. And of course, this will prove its point in this very post!

One season has ended, another season we are currently amongst in, and one more to come very soon. Waking up with sun and light shining into my room gives me motivation for the days to come.

I found out what course I want to follow in uni next year. Funny thing is that the current year 12s are sitting their exams at the moment. I have many problems/ trepidations about how my path and juveniles are paralleling.

I had love, and lost it. Or much rather, I let go. I'm sorry. It did mean a lot to me at one point, but it just wasn't for me. 

I've been indulging in the life of a legal child much more than expected for a person like me. Eg. making an effort to be seen in places, in outfits of a certain standard, lack of sleep, etc.

Work has finally set its concrete path in my daily plans. I mean, yeah, rosters tend to do it in the first place. But metaphorically, in my life, I feel more comfortable with everything. I still have a fair bit to go with meeting/ seeing/ serving so many randoms (many whom I do not like at first sight) and acting like I actually give.

My journey to find my passion has started. Beginning with meeting someone who helped me a lot, and then hurting them in the end. I'm sorry once again, I'm liking freedom and solidarity too much.

Another set of cousins from the States came over, and have left. A week is such a short time to connect with individuals who are regarded family- people you must respect and love. But when the case is that
I've realised that I can't open up to someone whom I've had no past connection with. Which doesn't make much sense seeing as you always gotta start somewhere with everyone.

Tonight I feel reflective. About God knows fucking what. I want ink. I've been thinking about it for a while now, and the other day I went ink-quota-hunting with Lisa and it was disappointing. The image I wanted inked on me was too small and the artist would've had to do it quite large. It wasn't what I'm after. I've got a few ideas bubbling in my head but I guess its gonna need more thought at times before bed or on public transport. To have something stuck to your skin is much more different than a dirty GTM bracelet around my wrist 24/7 for 3+ months. This time, I won't be able to take it off when I get sick.

Ronalds downloaded some sweet tunes on this desktop (seeing as hes broken my laptop I can't listen to my regulars) and I guess its contributed to how I'm feeling at the moment.

love/ excitement/ dread/ thoughtful/ mild/ melancholy/ sleepy/

Oh what a weird mix. Here's a taste of what I'm feeling at the moment.

Remember, the sky is the limit. The world is our playgound.

Till next time. (Hopefully not too long)
Annie xoxox