Sometimes I find it really hard having friends.


I love them, a lot. But emotionally connecting and keeping up is hard. I forget that they are also human beings with their own desires and ideas, they are not only MY friends but i am THEIR friend.

Defiantly separate beings.


It's like having an extension to your physical being now- you have to consider their feelings, that they may not agree, or that they may want to go somewhere else to yourself.
You might not even have a future together when the other half eventually cuts themselves off.
So so painful.

So many different feelings and thoughts.
So many different ways you could deliver yourself.
All with different expected outcomes.


ear juice: title and registration- death cab for cutie
freakishly related to what i'm feeling.