I haven't written or conjured up anything substantial in the last couple of months. Hm, I'm not sure what's been happening lately. Tomorrow morning I will be leaving for my family trip overseas. I will be cut off from any sort of social life and happenings that I have over here in Perth. It's gonna be odd, because those are the things that have been distracting me from anything important. I won't be able to live on a whim, pretend that nothing else matters except for the moments I find myself stuck in (ha oh so many odd situations I have found myself in that I never predicted).

I think maybe, this trip will be good for me. Cleanse, re-assess and cut off connections to meaningless and empty thoughts. Refresh my memory on different things, try and gain some sort of perspective. There's nine days till the new year dawns upon us. The past other three hundred and fifty six days have been a ride of oddities and new experiences. I didn't touch any sort of illicit drugs for a year and still aim to go far. My brain has sort of healed ... there was a slight set back the other week, but waves washed over and numbed the pain. I've collected a lot of memories as well. There is no understatement in that at all, lots of different people, strangers, friends, co-workers, acquaintances and disposable humans are all a part of these as well. In some way or another, all the faces that I have recognised and acknowledged in the past year have definitely inputted in my assessment of 2012 as to what it is now.

I'm still unsure how I feel overall about the year. Productive? Maybe. Experiential? Definitely. Traits of coming out of my comfort zone ... lots. This year I wanted to prove to myself that I don't have to stick to the image that I had conceived when I was younger. I can be anything I want. That being said, I became aware of many other social and familial pressures and restrictions. The social strata of Perth became more apparent to me and has influenced where I see myself in five years.

Ok. Now I'm just doing that thing where I say things that should really go in my journal.