i am jack's raging bile duct

i'm going crazy. i feel like i'm on a world where i actually listen to hilary duff and dream to be another person.

"its only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything"

i think the fact that i have done three hours and fifty minutes of study contributes to this extremely off-putting feeling. this morning was very weird, any little thing someone said to me could make me burst into tears. talking on the phone to robert for ten minutes helped a bit. i wonder how this years going to turn out.......... if i actually get to be what i wanted to, do what i've always dreamt and how perfect things turn out since its last year and all.



i want to be free.
free.