if your right hand is causing you pain, cut it off, cut it off

school life is slowly draining me....
less and less am i annie and more sub-human...
school is the bitchest place to be; people are such whores.

yesterday i had to say jack's headboy speech infront of 2000 people with my fringe up.
it was suicide, i could feel everyones eyes burning onto me. i said the word orange that samara and everyone else dared me to say, so i did.
except only about 1/10th of the people there understood so the other 9/10ths of people were like "who the hell is this short asian with big glasses and her fringe up trying to make laugh?"



"jack black, jack white, jack orange, and of course captain jack sparrow"

i found myself repeatedly saying to people after the speech that it wasn't a joke, and it wasn't meant to be funny. i just ended up being more and more embarrased thinking of what other people thought of me now. some weirdo probably.



but like i care right?
i mean thats what ms daly was teaching us in lit today, that one day we're going to grow up into individuals who will have the courage to subvert from social ideologies and say no!



ha who the fuck do i kid.







goal: stop swearing.
and actually study more than one and a half hours a night.