the air outside will make ourselves divide at an alarming rate

I don't know/ understand what I've done and if it'll ever get better

I don't like disconnection or any signs of drifting
no matter how much it happens all the time

I feel as if the world is revolving and growing around me,
yet I'm still where I've always been

What if I'm still here when you leave?
will you ever come back and say hello?

Why do I always fuck things up when they seemed so perfect



This song shows/ sings how I feel at the moment. You can rip me apart and dissolve me yet I will still be there and the foundations are set.

Commitment: - the trait of sincere and steadfast fixity of purpose; "a man of energy and commitment"
- the act of binding yourself (intellectually or emotionally) to a course of action;
- an engagement by contract involving financial obligation;
- the official act of consigning a person to confinement (as in a prison or mental hospital)

"Now I'm dreaming somebody would simply come and kidnap me"

If you are committed to someone, you are obliged to feel emotions of love, jealously, insecurity, security, anger, sadness, caused by them or even towards them. But when you are only committed due to the fact that it is feelings that bind you but not "an engagement by contract" or "official act of consigning a person" to a relationship, is it okay to feel paranoid about a simple, yet meaningful, act they took part in in the past that changes your view about them nearly entirely?

It is not entirely justified for me to feel not as strong about him anymore because this act was not aimed to make me feel lesser or much more pathetic. There are so many reasons that I should not care yet I still do.

I feel
Demise.

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