And it just felt like falling in love, again

Oh I've been a bad, bad inconsistent person. I have left my blogger to shrivel up and allow the spiders to fornicate and build cobwebs all over it. I am also putting off my study tonight to get distracted so not am I only inconsistent with my hobbies but also things that do matter as for instance my future. Whats even more life threatening is that there are only nine more days till exams and Hannah, Jack and myself indulged in afternoon tea in Mt Lawley when we should of clearly have been preparing for the unknown. Then again not that my hobbies don't matter but for now I suppose I should put them on a stand still for a while.

Production finally finished and is absolutley and completely eradicated in my life. My last ever time I could participate and I have since the mere age of 14. Ah, it really is sad how everything sooner or later comes to an end. I just never imagined it would come as quick as everything seems to be. Realisations that I am growing up and in two years (or even one) I might not even be where I am anymore.
Where will I be in two years?
Who will I be?
What will I be doing?
Will I still be the same person?
Like I was discussing with Hannah at the bus stop while we were waiting to go home the reality of how fast things come and go :(

Here are some photos from the finale of production. At least photos are something that will last forever (well at least until my laptop doesn't suddenly crash or something -touchwood-)

Obvioulsy the string part of the orchestra was the best everrrrr :)
We were the outcasts of the rest of the orchestra, Mr Mac would rant on to the brass and woodwind and leave us string people by ourselves :)
It was like we were in a wonderful world of our own...

Since the production this year was "Joseph and the Technicolour Coat" (some weird bible story which isn't actually true...) our own resident Joseph had to suffer through our teasing and mocking of his fake bible story. He also adopted a new name, 'J'Dog'.




This is the comic my next door string neighbourians drew during our 3 hour long rehersals at ten at night. Stuart and Wanda were the best neighbours I could ever ask for :) The stories and reninditions of our own production were hilarious.



I love these two photos :) Robert took them after running away and raping my camera taking the most randomest photos. These are two pretty cool photos he actually managed to take.
They just match each other, hey?

How do people find it in them to fail not once but many times yet still keep on going? It amazes me, the power of good thinking and the amount of will power some people have. Their strength is what I envy and also their mind-set to never give up. I wish to be like them one day.

The other night I felt so insecure and lonely. I had no idea I had the capability of worrying about something I shouldn't need to worry about so much. Trust is something that I need to get used to. I think I'm just a tad bit sick of being considered so "immature". I'm not as stupid as people think I am. Ok- my immaturity isn't some act I put on- it's just me. But it's so hard NOT to feel insecure when theres 14 year old girls all prepped and acting like an age I should be. You don't even realise their freaking 14 until you see them at school or see their age on facebook or myspace or something (sad and pathetic Annie, I know). But it's just not who I am :-( I'm not that type who goes out every Saturday night. I'm not the type that dresses to impress but rather for comfort. I'm the type that would rather stay at home and watch re-runs of Black Books than get so drunk that I don't remember what I did. I'm not the type that knows people. I'm the type thats comfortable with the people I surround myself with and don't care what "cliche" I fit in.
Fuck, I'm not even a fucking type.
I need to learn to feel more comfortable with myself and who I am.
Who cares if two people are so different that they fit together perfectly.
Who cares.

"Today I feel no wish to demonstrate that sanity is impossible. On the contrary, though I remain no less sadly certain than in the past that sanity is rather rare phenomenom, I am convinced tht it can be acheived and would like to see more of it."

I think I'm just about ready for bed. I'm going to go get some ice-cream, listen to PlayRadioPlay! for a while, read "The Caucasion Chalk Circle", brush my teeth and snuggle up in my bed with the heater on and lots of covers. Yes, that sounds wonderful Annie :-)
The weathers been making me feel much more melancholy and contemplative.
It's kind of annoying me!

Next post I promise to post up photos from Hannah + Samara's high tea birthday lunch and the mingers night out at Frances'
Just cause I can (-:

P,S: I have no idea how to widen my blogging community? Any ideas how??
Over n' out!