is there truth in your pain? you decide.

"Maybe it's best for now...."

Tell me what you're looking for:

Words of reassurance.
Comfort through hugs and kisses.
Warmth, not physical but emotional warmth-
the one where your heart is beating at a normal pace
and you feel safe and your tummy feels all fuzzy and content.
Security.
The ability to read and listen to what your words really mean.
Less stress and less worried expressions.

Hum..........

I'm in a really corny mood.
But its like a flawed corny mood because no one I know listens to From First to Last when they feel corny.
-sigh-

So I'm trying this new thing where I don't think about your affiliation for two weeks during exams. Fuck, more like I got it imposed on me. I don't know, it's causing more stress than I thought it would. Hah Sonny Moore just sang "I'm better off alone"
Oh how I agree with you right now Mr. Sonny Moore, my first unrealistic love.
I just wish and hope that nothing changes. I know the world doesn't revolve around this relationship and I know that there are other things that I should be more worried about but I just feel if it just ends it'd had been so shortlived and empty. Sometimes I wish I could, for just a fraction of a second, read what someone else was thinking. To understand what their all about. Just so I know and reassure myself that I wasn't the only one feeling sad. And that this would be all over soon......

I can't stop thinking about so many things :(
I need to get away.
I want to get away.
But like always I will never end up getting away

I'm going to go snuggle up with my furby (my little cousin Matthew found it today) that Jack got for me in year nine (good times, good times) and dream about unrealistic things........
I think I might go for an early walk tomorrow, it might release some of the endophorins I've been storing in my body that I urgently need.