MY STOMACH IS TWISTING INTO KNOTSSSS!

A few numbers, four at the most, will be out in  couple of hours determining my future and pretty much- my life. Before, people- friends and family- constantly asked me- drilling into my psyche the fact that these four numbers would be released in the coming days and if I felt and feelings of anxiousness or happiness that the relationship I finally have with TEE will be over and done with! To be honest, I haven't felt anything until the evening of the 28th of December 2009 graced us earthlings. I find it pathetic that these numbers are going to lead me to what my future will be.

I'm not really in the best mood at the moment. This fucking nurse last night/morning was constantly on my grill starting with a "if you're going to stay over, you can't sleep".
"Everyone on this ward has dementia so there's no point in you staying here"
"Are you going to do anything?"
WELL NO CRAP I WAS GOING TO AND I DID.
She shouldn't of been so heartless.