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days since the last post have been a slow drug in pumping the excitement up for the coming holiday season (XMAS & SOUTHBOUND BABAYY!). way overdue since retails have been advertising for the past two months. days have been spent at work, at the beach with matt cameron + jack (on an overcast day), working with sarah for "six four four paper wishes", and living on the wild side getting piercings, tatts and clothes that will collect dust in my wardrobe. nights have been spent inhaling residue of smoke, at ginourmous generation x slumber parties, editing numerous photos and living in my fantasies.







overall the last few weeks of 2010 have been busy. i'm leaving work soon as well (since my plans for 2011 are so in tact.) so i'm trying to make the most of the relationships i have formed with faces and brains i have met over the past six months. knowing my lack of ability to connect with strangers, this hasn't been so easy. eg- today at the tatt shop whilst qiqin was booking her appointment i could not even look in the eye let alone acknowledge an individual i have seen nearly every morning and served and memorised his order. there's something wrong with the social skills compartment in my brain- it needs to be desperately tweaked and altered.

talking about brains and compartments, the self actualisation nerves are severely damaged, after web 'stalking' so many pretty faces and admirable social status'. bleh?

still on the search for change. got my tongue pierced today, out of spontaneity. all this rebellion, sparked by fuck knows what, makes me love my parents more out of pity. this morning after coming home from spending the night at dorafas they showed me a video titled 'concert- 1998'. i was six and the specific part they showed me was something you'd envision of a scene out of a sad/ romantic film where the parents are watching the dead 5 year old child living, smiling, eating lollipops with the perfect scene and film motives for provoking the audience. yep- it provoked me, for me to go out a few hours after watching this close to tears of the innocence to modify my body in a way that my parents would certainly disapprove of. i love my parents so much.

these photos of sarah were taken on thursday. it was much more work than the 'shoot' i did with ashleigh a few weeks ago, only because it was indoor and i had never played with the lighting in the store room at work. i'll upload more later,