So who do you fool with the costume, we all know you're not who you say you are.

You built yourself up with lies and illusions to only see them fall with grace in front of your face.

I am sorry that my blogs lately have been very disconnected and short. It's nice to know people are reading it, even if they confront me at the randomest places like school or through other means on contact. Even if its not like the other fashion blogs or crap like that, its comforting to know other people get a kick out of my blogs.

I am not getting any satisfaction out of daily life at the present moment. Everythings the same fucking routine and I need a break. Thank God for holidays in a week. I will never appreciate holidays as much as I will this year.

Lately: -I've been making close friends I never thought I would ever associate with. It's those people you pass your eye over daily but you never bother to acknowledge. There are so many people in this world and it is my goal to try and understand people much much better. Meet new people and introduce myself to a whole array of personalities. Obviously there are still people that don't exactly mix with me but you can't do anything about that.

-I've been acting much much more mature. Even Robert has noticed this (but in the shallowest of ways- he said my "hair looks much more mature") Ok- so maybe his observation doesn't count but I was thinking before bed last night that I am way different to what I was three or two years ago. This sounds so fucking evolutionary but my brains kind-of developed in a way. I KNOW I don't act like the most perfect 16 year old but the way that I process problems and act accordingly is much more justified. This sound so lame but I have gained much more from my mistakes and humilations. It helps when people help you realise that you can always gain much more from situations than you think.

-I have been stressed than I ever have been in my life. It's like I've OD' on stress pills. I need ME time. Soley for the purpose of me feeling more human and calm.

-Thinking about people and their true feelings/ colours. It's sad how you can't understand everyone and why they act the way they do. I think about marriage alot (no, I am not planning to get married but it's just one of those things in the future you look forward to) and the feeling you get of knowing your partner inside and out. Corny, yes. But to know someone like you were born as a whole would be amazing. I'm striving to understand someone that intrigues me. But it's so hard when they act so ignorant around you. It's like they have fucking pms 24/7. One second their all lovingly friendly but then next day they look at you like they don't even know you.

-Analysing who I want to keep in contact with after school. Morbid in a way. But the list is so long I know it will be impossible to keep up with. You always meet these people you never want to let go.
And
-trying to make things less awkward than normal

These are the photos from string camp -tear-
They aren't the best of quality but I really don't care.
There's a story behind every single photo I took (not all are on here obviously) and thats what makes them special.

Don't tell me this photo doesn't make you go "awww" apart from the fact that Joseph has the most constipated face. But it was so fun trying to take a photo of him with me and Chris mouthing words to each other so Joseph wouldn't realise. He woke up after Chris started laughing and his shoulders were moving. Shame on you Chris' shoulders

Robert decided to be a bitch this year and only bring one tennis racquet to camp. So we just sat around watching him serve enjoying each others company >.> Hahaha.

My new best friend in strings. His name is Stewart and he makes me happy.

:)

Taken by Joseph.

I capture Wanda at her best :)

I think Wanda + Chris win at making the funniest faces (on candid camera)

"Mmmm, cookie....."

HAHAHAHA!! He looks like a frog :} But a cool one at that.

So those two photos ^ + many more Chris decided to take while Robert accompanied me to the males toilet cause I got a blood nose. Wanda, Victor, Joseph and Chris were like "let's take all these random photos while Annie's gone and let's see if she notices." I love you guys so much. There all really hilarious photos (as seen above above) but I can't be bothered putting them all up. Mischeivious little violin players.

So on Saturday night, instead of movie-ing-it year 12's, minus Luke and Seth, decided to study. Oh did we study....... ha.
We talked about "gnarly" and "dardy" things like all string players do. I also got a splinter in my foot for sliding on the floorboards with Chris. It's so hard to resist not too, the floorboards are always so shiny- they pretty much just invite you to slide on them.

"so thats why the lady at the start said don't slide on the floorboards....."

Robert's lack of concentration is seen above ^
I was trying to make our lit speech but he kept on shoving the camera in my face!!

I never knew he could be such a camera whore.

Last day :(

Taken by Chris.

Talk about muntakated face. Chris always takes the most unflattering photos. I was probably in mid-sentence proving Robert wrong like always ;)

Aw.. well this was the, uh, last string group photo EVER. (until we have a next one). Well Robert, Chris and Wanda have been in string camp for ages. But since last year, the groups always been (in order like in photo) Joseph, Annie, Robert, Chris, Victor and Wanda. Stewarts a newbie, him and Victor are going to be so lonely when us year 12's leave. But awwwww, this photo just makes me want to go back.

and bus ride back :( :( :(

The picture of the feet are Stewarts, and mine. We were swaying to Hilary Duff songs. Hard to the core fully.

Well I'm off to study for my in-class essay tomorrow on Gwen Harwood (ahhhhh)
Love Annie.