Hi there Life,





How you been doing?
I know from reading my blog-posts from over the past three years I've pretty much been pretty hard on you. I mean strenuously studying for TEE, amongst experiencing some sort of twisted lust (twice as well), then making the weather match my mood, then mentioning alcohol is good for the brain or something,  and taking everything that verbally hits me seriously.
Then finally making it to university (that you've made me want to ever since a little girl) and then make me drop out? Making me wake up at 6 every morning (Monday mornings were especially hell- those poor fetal pigs we had to dissect!!) and go through chemistry all over again. And then the physical hell of having to work at a cafe in the city, from early morning till close, smelling like fried food/ coffee beans/ salads/ bread flour on the bus ride home. I could have done so much during those 6 months, like, um, I don't know... probably feel more confident about photography? And not feel so under the shadow.
AND THEN, I end up back at university under familial pressures and now I wonder how the fuck I got back here. Now I realise what I want out of you, life, and I'm stuck back at uni again.





Lately, I've been wondering why, why was I so ..passive? Especially on a public forum. Oh wait- what? You still make me do it? Really? I'm doing it now?
Well that's because I want to show you in conjunction (blog and life) that it's because you and me are more alike than we know. I guess all is related extensionally.

Over these past three years, life, I feel nothing has changed. It goes on around a circle, and around, and around. And keeps going. 





You know, I was going to tell you, today, that what we need is a determinist view point. The over-ruling premise being you, Life, uncontrollable and spontaneous. But, since we are now deterministic (I think I just made that up), we will see everything being pre-determined. Everything happens for a reason. So now, I will treat you with more respect, Life.


Nah, you know that's a lie. Fuck determinism, let's just all be nihilists and listen to Joy Division and get high.







(Kidding.. or am I?)

Lots of love,

Annie x

p,s, I have an Anthropology exam tomorrow and I am beyond screwed.
There is no chance in survival at all. Especially since I have been on the internet since 9 this morning and it just turned 11.

p,p,s, I'm listening to Sprawl of Glass (II)- Arcade Fire

p,p,p,s All images found on ffffound.com